Lights

This is it:

I will quit school by next semester.
I will work full time.
I will write music full time.
I will lose my bloody fucking weight.
I will tell her I love her so.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.

Till then, goodbye and a happy new fucking fucking fucking year.

And I Love Her

and...
I love her.

Every Song

if I could go back there,
I'd take you with me
walking in a new painting
forgetting our homes
and we'd walk it down
together and never
back where we came from
blessing ourselves
with the music I've laced
all coming from the
shadow you left behind.

Hilfe

some say you've lost
your eyes in the new day
some say you've lost
your heart in yesterday
why do I care
you've only cut your hair
but your name's still intact
why would you care
grow, grow, grow
out of yourself
but, what if
you do forget
my name..

I'd probably forgot my own name too...

Endless

let me place
my head of lead
on your soft breasts
to listen to my
heart beating in yours..

Urges of Break

yourself.
an idea to die for.
myself.
an unworthy idea.
why else do I sing of you.
why else do I dream of you.
please enter soon...
i'm losing myself.
conceive defeat
I will never kiss you
at least let someone
enter: a replica of your being.

Sadness.

I am such a liar: I can never face myself anymore...